Not so much about the sex… sorta.
We’re in another sex spurt, which is a good thing.
Ranger and I had a conversation just a few days ago. While the details of why we got into the conversation will be left out to protect the guilty, suffice it to say there were feelings of betrayal and anger on both sides. We both felt hurt and ignored. So I finally got Ranger to talk about it.
We’re trying something new. I’m trying to stop paying more attention to my schoolwork than to him, and he’ll try to make changes on his end as well. I almost feel bad because if his changes don’t take effect, our relationship is in serious jeopardy, while if I slip once in a while (like around midterms and finals) the world won’t end. Still… I’ve been ignoring him less and we’ve been having sex almost every day since the discussion. We’re also communicating more about the various aspects of swinging and/or polyamory that interest us. This is a good thing.
Now on to the non-sex stuff since I feel a deep and desperate need to share. My shoulder and arm HURT. Why, you may ask? Well, because I just spent an hour and a half practicing the cello. This is the first time I’ve picked it up for more than about 20 minutes in… oh my god, eleven years. My muscles are aching, my ears are ringing from the pain of it all, and I have NO CLUE WHATSOEVER why I decided to get back into this. Thankfully, my left hand doesn’t hurt so much. I’m embarrassed to admit that it’s probably because of Guitar Hero and Rock Band that my left arm isn’t in a world of hurt, but it’s true. At least one side of me isn’t screaming about the practice. And if I’m lucky, I’ll be back in shape by early May (*cough*yeahright*cough*) so after the next concert in which I’m playing percussion, I can return to play cello and not need too much handholding.
I truly am terrified about this, but it’s something I’ve wanted for years and I’m going to follow this dream again no matter what. Hmph.
Published by Ang on April 8th, 2008 | Filed under General, Ranger, Swinging | Comment now »Weekend Recap
Late Friday night, we got news from our friends that they’d be able to come visit, arriving Saturday evening. Saturday, I spent most of the day doing homework frantically so we’d have more time with them. Didn’t quite finish it, but got a lot done. Our plan was to get the boys to bed before they arrived, but they made better time than any of us anticipated - we were just wrapping up dinner when they arrived. I went outside to meet them, and when I came back inside with them, Bug’s eyes… well, bugged out. It was hilarious.
After the kids finally went to bed, we hung out and played board games for a bit - we like our board games, and they brought one with them called Seven Deadly Sins or some such. Great game. Highly amusing, and I can’t remember who won. After that was over, we put it away and pulled up the computer games. Computer games are fun things when they involve adult monopoly. Oh, yes. We played 4play for a good long time, and finally ended up in one big naked, sweaty pile on the floor. J ended up the focal point of just about everyone’s attention, which was perfectly fine - a big point of their visit was stress relief for her, so she needed to be the center of attention. I had fun anyhow - her husband, S, is particularly good at getting squirtgasms out of me! We didn’t get to bed until probably around 3AM, and still had to get up in the morning when the kids did, but the fun was worth it - I never figured an uncoordinated group effort could actually be that fun.
Sunday night, we all endeavored to get to bed plenty early, but I attacked Ranger after trying to fall asleep unsuccessfully for over half an hour. The middle of the night brought another round of happy fun time, and after that I finally fell asleep hard. Next morning we all got up, got ready, and headed back to our respective real lives. S and J headed back home, a 7-8 hour drive (so glad they decided it was worth it!) while Ranger went to work, I went to school, CJ went to the babysitter, and Bug went to school. We had to get back to real life so darn quickly, we didn’t have time for post-fun drop. It hit later in the week, I think, and we went probably two weeks without calling S and J. We’re over that now, thankfully, and we’re already looking forward to the next time we can all visit together.
I think the greatest thing to have come from the whole weekend? Ranger paid attention and got a rather large puddle in the middle of the bed from me just the other day. Schaweeeeeeeeeet! Let’s hope he remembers that, cause I am officially in love with squirtgasms. LOVE them. Wish I could give them to myself. I guess I’ll just need an nJoy for that - who wants to donate to the worthy cause?
Published by Ang on April 6th, 2008 | Filed under General | 1 Comment »Please to be forgiving me…
I suck. I know.
We got company Wednesday of finals week - my last final was Thursday. They left Tuesday evening. I spent Wednesday and Thursday trying to recover, and now I’ve managed to get myself disgustingly ill.
I have been working on the draft for the post you deserve, it’s saved right up there - you see it? I do. But neither lucidity nor the ability to sit still for more than five minutes are part of my life today. I did have some really amusing dreams while I was napping with the electric mattress pad turned all the way up. Even when the temperature outside is subzero I never turn it higher than 5. Yes. I’m so sick my skin hurts. You can look at me funny now if you want.
And now I must go before my shivering gets so bad I drop the laptop. Where’s my damn meds???
Published by Ang on March 28th, 2008 | Filed under General | Comment now »Finals Week
Seriously, finals are going to kill me, if for no other reason than that I’m fucking horny and don’t have enough time to come as hard as I want/need to.
This sucks.
In other news, I plan to study my ass off tonight, do one take home final, work on a project, and try to find some time to play Rock Band with Ranger. Or maybe Guitar Hero III. Doubt it’ll happen, but a girl can dream. Why not sex, you ask? Well, cause Ranger most likely has no interest in going to bed as early as I will need to. And also probably has no desire to do anything before bedtime. No, really.
Published by Ang on March 18th, 2008 | Filed under General | Comment now »March 17th
Saint Patrick’s Day.
That guy that brought Christianity to Ireland. Go, dude, go.
I generally refrain from religiosity, but for the record I was born Catholic, raised Catholic, and now I consider myself somewhat of an agnostic. After a lot of soul searching over the years, I’ve essentially decided that a pantheon of several gods makes the most sense to me, both logically and spiritually. The Celtic pantheon, consequently, makes the most sense of the available historical pantheons.
Having said that, I am wearing green, everyone in my family is wearing green, and we celebrate Alcohol Tolerance Day with the best of them. The corned beef is on the stove, boiling in preparation for cabbage and potatoes, the steak and Guinness pie was made last night, my new cellphone’s ringtones almost all sound Irish, and I’m celebrating as best I can from the safety and warmth of my house.
I do have some seriously awesome sex stories for you. I’m begging off typing them up, though, until after finals. You don’t have long to wait, my last final is Thursday and then it’s spring break.
Published by Ang on March 17th, 2008 | Filed under General | 1 Comment »The Happy Dance
They need names. My wonderful “extra” family. In the meantime, they are J and S.
Now that we’ve gotten that out of the way… THEY’RE COMING TO VISIT TODAY! Due to a circumstance that would have otherwise been very upsetting, they’re heading this way in just over an hour, and should be here about an hour after the kids go to bed. I am beyond excited. More than the sex, more than how absolutely horny I am, I have really missed hanging out with my friends. The stress of the last few days (leaving me with a nearly irresistible urge to pull my hair out) has really made me miss having that support structure nearby. There’s a difference between calling 3-4 times a week and being able to sit on the front porch, hanging out and relaxing together.
J needs to get out of town anyhow. A weekend away is just what they need - that it’ll be spent with Ranger and myself is the icing on the cake. Hm… cake frosting…
I do need to go shopping sometime today, though - gotta pick up some Pepsi for the anti-Coke contingent, snacky food, and decide what to do for dinner Sunday night so I can get stuff for that too if necessary. I might wait on the Sunday night dinner until tomorrow, and that way if they want something in particular, we can do that.
HAPPY DANCE!!!
Published by Ang on March 8th, 2008 | Filed under General, Swinging | Comment now »Dirty Laundry
Ranger spent a good amount of time doing laundry yesterday. You see, it was his day off and I spent the whole day in classes. Not only that, but he ALSO had dinner ready almost as soon as I walked in the door. Awesome.
We got a coupla sick kids into bed, and when I came downstairs I found him in the laundry room. As I turned to walk back out, he moved with surprising sneakiness and pinned me against the door. He found my mouth and ravaged it until my lips were raw. *swoon*
Not much foreplay happened. Not much was needed. The table was handy, but there’s plenty on it, so my pajama pants were yanked down and I was bent over the table, holding myself up amidst sewing projects and boxes of craft projects. It was a quickie, no doubt about that, but it sure was a nice precursor to later in the night.
Afterwards? Well, there was clean laundry readily available to clean up with. One more load wouldn’t hurt.
Published by Ang on March 6th, 2008 | Filed under Ranger, Sex | Comment now »Snort and Guffaw
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Time and time again
There must be a documented sexual cycle in relationships. Or at least an emotional one.
Ranger and I both spend a lot of time on our computers. I shouldn’t resent the time he spends on his, but I feel like if someone asks me to spend time with them, I can turn away from my computer and do that unless I have a deadline to meet. To the contrary, I feel like if I want Ranger to go to bed with me early or just spend some time with me, I have to beg or plot or something to pry him away from his online chats. And I resent that.
This is only coming up because of a post I responded to earlier today, and under ordinary circumstances I can live with minor irritations such as this. The problem? When it rains, it pours, and lately it’s been pouring bad luck on us. We’re stressed over finances, a really sick kid (and trying to keep us from getting it), school issues, work issues, time issues, and we don’t spend time together anymore.
On the flipside, the weight of our mutual responsibilities has been carried a little more evenly lately, and I am incredibly grateful for that. I have two weeks left in this term, and need to buckle down in a hurry to get final projects and whatnot completed in time. Add on the “extra” stress I’ve been trying to deal with from one particular class, and you’ve got one frazzled and tightly wound redhead.
How to best relieve some of that stress? Well, drag Ranger from his chair during naptime for the kid(s) and ravage him on the living room floor. And if he won’t respond? Hey, I have toys. I’ve returned to the neglected land of Masturbation after an unrealistic extended absence. How in the world did I forget about this?!?!?!?
So while life is stressful, overwhelmingly so, it’s not as bad as it could be. Thanks to the tiny white pills, I’m willing and able to lower my head and plow through the worst parts. Sure, there’s moments where I don’t know how I’ll get through, but then I do and reassess, rethink, and do what it takes to follow through with my ideas and convictions. See me? I rock. I’m a badass, and I am proud to say that I’ve earned the title. By the way? I’m back.
Published by Ang on March 4th, 2008 | Filed under General, Ranger | 2 Comments »Lovin’
Sometimes, it’s amazing how much love one person is capable of.
I don’t know EXACTLY how the people I’m thinking of currently feel, but I tell you what - I’d do just about anything for either one of them, I am madly in lust with both of them, and I miss them, likely more than even I can fathom.
There are three people in my life that I love romantically, and that’s a strange feeling considering it’s something I’ve never experienced. I’ve never really been AGAINST polyamory so much; I’ve just not found people I’d want to love and be loved by. People that I would want in my family, to go on dates with either of them and not just have random sexual encounters with. It’s kind of a hard concept to wrap my brain around. Granted, I think this couple is hot as hell and the sex was fun. But there’s an emotional connection as well - I love them, their family, their lives… we’ve all been through a lot and been able to support each other through it, even if we’ve been separated by quite a bit of distance.
I suppose what I’m saying is that I’ve been caught quite off guard by all of this in the last few months, and in the last few days everything has intensified, much to my surprise. I won’t complain about it one bit, although I’m a little nervous to see how it all turns out…
Published by Ang on March 2nd, 2008 | Filed under Swinging | 2 Comments »